1.17.06 [ exhausted ]

God I can't even begin to explain how worn out I am. I had a 4-day weekend off from school, but most of it was moving stuff over to the new house that we're remodeling. I got like hardly any sleep, then started over again. Thank god I didn't have to work Sunday. About the new house though... my mom said that we are all(me/brother/mom/dad) staying in the part thats done, which is pretty much two big rooms that were side by side and gutted and made into one. God, I dunno if I can wait it out and spend that long in there with them while they are remodeling the rest of the house. Don't get me wrong, I love my family... but I get tired of them, along with people in general extremely fast. I can already tell I'm going to feel claustrophobic staying in there with them. To top it all off, I had school today, and the teacher I'm teacher's aide for claims that she had nothing for me to do but a couple of little things that I got done in like ten minutes. Then at the end of the block with only like 5 minutes left she gives me these two packets that she needed copies of, and the copier was being a bitch and copying slow as hell. Then when the bell rang she came in there and acted irritated when I didn't have it done. I just wanted to say: well I'm so fucking sorry, give me a little more notice next time. Oh well, I survived another day... 37 days til I'm completely out of that hell hole, I can't wait. Anyways, I'm gonna go get some much needed sleep, night night.

1.13.06 [ fading ]

Fading... yea that pretty much explains me right now. My new years resolution was to just be happy with myself, and not give a shit about what others thought. But unfortunately I'm just to self-consicious and that's just not happening... it's even worst when I'm stuck in school with all the narrowminded people who are to caught up with themselves to give a shit about anyone else or their feelings. I'm sick of it all... "fuck them all" my new philosophy.

Tonight contradicted what life has been like lately. Usually I'm all blah about everything.. just want it to be over. But tonight was pretty good. I went out with Erica to Players to eat. The food wasnt that great, but I'd have to agree with her, the atmosphere was good. Erica's having trouble with her friend... and shes kind of down about the whole thing, which I really hate to see. I love her tons and she's one of the most down to earth people I know, and one of the few things that keeps me going. I hope she gets better...

1.07.2006 [ a gay guy's touch? ]

Mmm.. So I had work today, from ten to six as planned. It was ok I suppose, other than the fact that my mom was a complete wreck. She was so nervous and worked up to get her booth the way she wanted, and in moving things around she broke 2 glass candles. (We run a booth @ a supermarket/strip mall type of thing by the way) God, I just wanted to sit down with her and tell her to calm down. After awhile she was ok, she needed me there to give her tips on how to make the booth better, plus I helped run it for the majority of the day. Playing around on the cash register was fun. She was happy with how it turned out, I guess she needed a gay guy's touch? ^^

1.06.2006 [ beginning ]

Ok, so I've finally decided to post in this thing because:
1.) im extremely bored right now, and 2.) it's nice to vent ^^

So today was pretty much hell. Had school as usual, but missed my lunch with Erica due to being overloaded with teachers aide stuff. I'm beginning to think it wasn't the best idea to take that instead of accounting, but so far it beats sitting in Mr. Lukert's room learning useless crap. We also got a seating chart in Shakespeare and I got moved away from Katie and Heather *nooo* and instead got moved next to a junior whom I know nothing about. Also I wanted to go out tonight with Erica and her friend, but no, I was stuck working then helping my cousin and her husband move to Wichita. I hope you had fun Erica! :( I think I'll sleep now, I have to work again tommorrow from ten to six I believe, what fun that will be. Maybe I'll get mom to take us to Chinese for lunch. -_- Nite!